singing out because my tear ducts are too tired...

...:-(

2003-12-11T20:12:11Z

*cries*

Wayman passed away this morning from a heartattack. Marie called my Mom this morning crying. :( I can't believe it...poor Kay, I mean...:(

blah...

...i'm feelin it...see my hips movin'.

2003-12-11T07:22:44Z

you're old enough to be my mother *oh yeah* but i wanna do you and so does my brother *that's me*

*rolls around on the floor laughing her ass off*

and ON THAT NOTE...i'm going to bed, i'm so incredibly tired...it's insane!

*giggles* BRILLIANT! ahahaha...

goodnight!

...i want a job!

2003-12-11T04:14:46Z

so i can buy shit that i want....i know that is random but i'm random today.

umm...so yeah...i'm tired...and sick!

*curls up in a ball on the floor and sings YC*

sigh...

...holy shit!

2003-12-10T03:26:40Z

i feel like....SHIT!

*cries*

i'm sick, officially! i have a headache, my eyes are itchy, i have an ear ache, i'm dizzy as hell, my throat is scratchy....i slept for a little while woke up and felt like i was hit with a bag of bricks...NOT COOL!

*lays down...*

....gooooood morning!

2003-12-09T15:08:56Z

blahness!!

nothing last forever i'm sorrrrrrrry i can't peeeeeeeeeerfeeeeeeectttt....

lol sorry, that video is on right now...

umm...lol i'm going to visit Gracie today...and Emily too...*yay!* kids make me laugh...they'll cheer me up! Other than that i'm doing NOTHING!!

I've decided to go back to school part time in January...yeah...and I want to get a job...if anybody will hire me! lol *wooo* can you feel the excitement!

well well...i stayed up until 9 lastnight...lol I woke up at 8am....seriously, this is the most normal sleeping schedule I've ever had...I hate it! lol

alrighty...bye for now...

...falls over!

2003-12-09T00:10:13Z

i'm wicked sleepy!*zzzzzz*

annnyway...muststayuppast7pm...lol

ohhh man...how disgusting is the Korn video, has anyone seen it, pretty much the nastiest video ever to exist. I'm pretty sure I was on the verge of puking!!*gags*

I got in trouble for saying "fuck" today! lol My brother and I were fighting (what's new) and I said "you know what, you're really fucked up!" and my Mom spazzed...I mean like "you're grounded" kind of spazzed. haha i'm 19, so i don't care, she can't ground me...the woman is wierd i tell you, she doesn't care if I say every word in the book 10 times a minute just not "fuck." lol oh well FUCK it! *grins*

soooooo that's about it for now...i'm bored...bored...bored!!

OHHHH...look at the Brand New icons I made today, well they are Jesse, because Jesse's hot...dealwithit...

yum right? uh-huh!!!

ps: idobi radio owns you all...yes!

bye for now!

...skips

2003-12-08T16:30:05Z

yeah...i'm bored, i have to go to the University to do stupid Financial Aid shit...grr...but until then...I'm here....

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

BOO!!

2003-12-07T22:23:09Z

lol i feel like i haven't been online in a few days...but really in was two nights...I haven't talked to Michy in a few nights or the rest of the girls! I miss you all!*hugs* Annnnywaaaay....

We got 18 iches of snow and I'm not happy about that. Andrew was going to take me to lunch today! *grr* Ohhhh yes...that brings me to Andrew and our "date" lastnight. He came to my house to pick me up at around 6:15 to go to the parade...well he came inside and my Dad said "you can both come watch it with us all at the office." *insert pissed look* So being nice he said "yeah we can, let's do that Abby." *insert dirty look directed at my Dad* lol Anyway...it was freezing outside lastnight and I had my Brand New hoodie on...OHHHH that reminds me when we got in his car, he was playing the Deja Entendu cd...*humps* anyway...we are standing on the deck watching the parade at the office and we stands behind me and wraps his arms around me to keep me warm, because I was about two shakes away from hypothermia...lol good times. Anyway...since we didn't get to hang out he invited me to lunch today but everything was closed because of the storm. I'm going to call him tomorrow if he's not working and see if he wants to go maybe.

So that was the wonderful..."date!" lol He's cute, funny, smart...and he works at a record store...seriously I'm going to marry him! lol jk...

alright...time to eat something before i pass out...

...okaaaaaay.

2003-12-06T12:19:08Z

You don't loathe anyone! you....fan you. I have no
time to associate with people like you. I'm
disgusted.

Which Something Corporate Member Do You Loathe the Most?
brought to you by Quizilla

*looks confused!*

...giggles

2003-12-05T08:06:00Z

Benji : "I'm a director! What's that umm...slappy thing"
Joel: "shut-up!"

ahahaha...i love that part!

yes...Benji can be the father of a few of my kids too...*rawr*

...i've decided...

2003-12-05T05:13:12Z

that the father of my children is going to be Chris from GC...yes! Because yes...I said so. He's so my new lover...lol he's hilarious...so yes!

the GC dvd is awesome...uh-huh...i love the commentary...and Tony (my former lover..lol) makes an appearence in a few of the videos...which we before my GC love came along so it's new to me...

don't hate me because I'm new school! lol

*skips*

...does a happy dance

2003-12-04T08:06:59Z

Guster and Howie Day in Portland, Maine...this month...live dvd shoot...

ANDREA AND I ARE SOOOOO THERE FUCKERS!

I mean....yeah! lol She and I have seen Guster, with John Mayer, but we haven't seen Howie and we got back with Howie like we go back with John, ya know what I'm sayin'...okay so maybe you don't but humor me and pretend like you do...

*skips along...*

...it's me and the moon she saaaays.

2003-12-04T04:32:51Z

hey hey hey! I just woke up, and I'm still half asleep so if this entry doesn't make sense it's not my fault, k? lol

Um...so I actually got some Christmas cards done today, my Mom asked me how in the hell I knew people all over the US and Canada...lol She's crazy like that though, I've explained "message boards" to her like 20 times and she still forgets! haha! Anyway...so then I painted lyrics on my door...umm...in red paint I wrote:

"the stars will cry the blackest tears tonight. And this is the moment that I live for. I can smell the ocean air. And here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops. Just a ghost to the world. That's exactly what I need. From up here these city lights burn like a thousand miles of fire and I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day."

rad huh? I thought so. It's from Story of the Year. I'd take a picture but it won't come out because the lighting in my room in shit! After that I made snowmen out of socks, ribbons, felt, buttons, pipecleaners...lol They are cute...and I was bored! lol So after that I went online and decided after to go to Wal-Mart but never made it there...because I went out and realized the car was gone, my Mom was at school. She ended up not getting back until 4-ish and by the time I had fallen asleep on the floor in the living room again. I slept until 10:30 and now I'm here. lol I want the GC dvd, the website says they have it for $9.88...I hope it's right, because I'm broke.

Alright kids...that's all for now...*dances*

...what's going on!

2003-12-03T06:21:43Z

*winks*

Sooo...does anybody out there know if Wal-Mart has the GC dvd?? I found out I have some money on my checkcard but not enough to buy it at FYE because they suck ass! lol Wal-Mart is usually cheaper so yeah!

OHHHHHH....guess what...

It looks a little blurry in this pic...but wooo...

anyway...i have yet to do my Christmas cards because I'm still waiting for a few more address...I need more people to send them too...so e-mail me your address is you haven't damnit! lol

abby.mclaughlin@maine.edu

*skips off singing...*

...bored!!

2003-12-02T07:16:17Z

and tired! What's new though!?lol Anyway...i'm pissed my Dad borrowed money from me and now I might not have enough for the GC dvd which pisses me off, he should get his finances under control damnit! lol

anyway...I got batteries for my digital camera so wooo here are some random stupid pictures...

My new socks:

and...just another lip ring, it's a black ball...and i'm not topless it's a tank top...lol does it look like I need another haircut already because I think I do...it's weird! lol

and that's it...i'm going to write my Christmas cards now I think because I didn't do it lastnight!

-World AIDS Day-

2003-12-01T07:52:08Z

Today, December 1st, is World AIDS Day. 5 people worldwide die of AIDS every minute. Please wear a red ribbon today in support of all of those affected by this disease. Visit: worldaidsday.org to find out more.

For anyone who knows me, you know AIDS awareness is something very close to my heart. Please take a minute today to recognize World AIDS day. thanks!

:-)

....wooo

2003-12-01T03:46:47Z

AFI is on Hard Rock Live this Wednesday!!*dances* I can't wait...I hope I don't forget...lol

Anyway...so you know what I figured out today? That apparently if you are pierced with a 14g and then you decided to go ahead and where a 16g for a loooong time and go back to the 14g, it's not going to go in. lol I mean it was just not going to happen, I hurt myself and realized just to stick with 16g. I should have known I suppose...*hits self*

looodeeedooo Sundays are boring. I'm going to start writing my Christmas Cards I think!!

....yawn.

2003-11-30T09:23:45Z

Down

The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so

Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
---------------------------------------------------
what a great, great, great song!!!!!!!

...those boys are hilarious!

2003-11-30T03:07:14Z

The Crashin' With Good Charlotte thing was great! Just what I needed. Especially since Benji was wearing that hat I love..*humps* ANNNYWAY...it was great when Benji and Joel were in the girls room screwin' around with all of their stuff...lol it was great. The best was when Benji was just laying there looking at the posters and goes..."hot guys." lol So funny!!

I'm also pretty sure that Chris and I are meant to be together...lol I fucking love him!! He was so wearing the Mest hoodie I was trying to win on Ebay, I was jealous! lol

Anyway...I'm on a wicked The Young & The Hopeless kick (song, not album) I mean I've had it on repeat for awhile...it's probably because of the David Letterman performance of it I randomly found one day...*wooo*

dances

2003-11-29T03:40:22Z

I bought AP...*wooo* and I just wanted to put this part because I love it:

Joel: I look at fame as this big negative connotation, this big bad word. It's like the VIP section of the club. I hate that. I don't like places where you have to be on a list to get in. I don't like restaurants where you have to "be somebody" to eat at. I've been there, and the whole time you're sitting there thinking " If my band wasn't doing this right now, these people would ignore me, give me dirty looks and not even think twice." We care about our fans. Ninety-eight percent of the people who recognize us aren't our fans. They saw us on TV, so thanks for saying hi, but they're not the people I care about. I care about the kids that are into our music.

Benji: We belong to a group.

Joel: We belong to our fans.

that is rad, so bow down mother fuckers, i love them...all of them.

I went shopping, it kind of sucked, i bought Taking Back Sunday...and I couldn't get a tattoo because the place was closed...*insert sadness* yes...oh well...

*skips*

...ahahaha.

2003-11-28T05:07:51Z

we'll play some shows, drink some beer and smoke a bong or twoooo...

*dances* lol Mest owns me!!

So yesterday I saw Andrea and I take a look at the back of her car it's covered in Mest and Yellowcard stickers...*muahahahahaha* I wish I had a car to put stickers on...I was all "can I put stickers on yours!?" lol

I'm bored, i'm waking up in 4 hours to go shopping with my Mom...I want to get a tattoo today if the place is open...*skips* the thing is i'm still not sure what i want...i got back and forth...lol

I'm going to watch the Mest dvd because it's really been too damn long!!

ps: i have the fucking hottest lj icon...*stares*

...Happy Thanksgiving!!

2003-11-27T07:18:15Z

:-D *woo* Tofurkey time! haha Annnyway....I'm going to sort of follow the theme and say what I'm thankful for...warning: potential cheesyness ahead...lol

First off...my family. My family has always been there through everything, they'd give me the world, not just my parents my extended family. As annoying as they get sometimes, I'm so lucky to have all of them. I'm also thankful for knowing my Nana, she was the head of our family, the most important person...things sort of fell apart a little after she died, I hope wherever she is she knows we are trying to keep everything together like we promised. I'm thankful for the time I had with her and for all she gave me throughout my life.

Second, music. I live for music, literally. Every day I'm able to get through I'm thankful for the music that helps me get through it because when you have nothing else you can trust it's there...I'm thankful for the great bands who share their lives in their music because it keeps me going.

Third, my friends. I've lost a lot of friends in my life, people who swore that no matter what they would be there...those people who gave up on me make me that must more thankful for those who didn't. I'm thankful for Andrea, who no matter what seems to always pull through...I hope I can return the favor. As for my online friends, as silly as the concept is to some people, online friends are a huge part of my life and I'm so thankful for that!!

Fourth, my sister. My sister is probably my best friend in the world. She's easily my biggest inspiration for everything she is and all she has become, she never lets me down no matter what, i'm so thankful for her and all she gives me, and the relationship we have.

and last, all of the things I have that people take for granted. My house, the car, the clothes on my back, not having to worry if I'm safe and knowing I'll always be taken care off in everyway. So many people have nothing...we should all thank God we have these things, we owe it to those who don't!

and that is all...it's been a rough year but it could be worse, i'm thankful for some much...i should really think about it more!

*HUGS FOR EVERYONE*

I hope you all have a great time wherever you are and whoever you are with!!

..ahahahah!

2003-11-26T09:09:15Z

look! it's my Mom thuggin' it Joel-style in my new hat...

she can be really amusing when she wants to be! lol

...listens to the silence

2003-11-26T05:53:28Z

wow...just when things start to seem to get better...there is another bump in the road...which is so cliche...i mean...i'm fucking really sick of it all...

they lied, they all fucking lied to me...

someone please take me away....even just for a little while because I'm about to just give up!!

*sigh*

...i wonder how hard it would be to...

2003-11-25T04:33:49Z

makeout with somebody...i mean with my lipring, i've been kissed since i've had it...but making out is more intense...

haha...damn, yes i'm that bored apparently...

*blasts blink 182*